Hey sorry, will reply to your PM soon enough. I was supposed to have my first date today, but my date was sick =(

Sint stands for Saint Nicholas (and aapje for monkey) so basically a Saint Nicholas (dressed) monkey. And Zwart Piet stands for the helpers of Saint Nicholas. Again aapje. It stood in Fang's MSNname, so I decided to change his name to his new name, and my name aswell. They will be changed back soon.

Thanks for the birthday post

seemed like you and umb were the only ones who cared :P

not that I did anything for my birthday. I didn't even eat that day.

Hey thanks. Today I had a sort of date. And it went fine. How are you?

Hey VH happy Saint Nicholas (the more classical name for it)

I am going to bed, it is late for you aswell, so sleep well in advance!

Ehm are you still where you were kinda? You seemed to have dissapeared?

Ah I dare to do so. I mean what are the odds they visit the site and know who I am etc. etc.. I am not really discussing the very personal parts Only my crushes, and that my crushes know or not know that I crush them, ah well it doesn't matter for me, by the time they read it, I am alreayd over it

Sorry for the big VM yesterday, and yeah don't worry, I am not scared if things stand on the net =)

Very mixed. I had reacted to an online advertisement to search for a BF (from another boy). And we started chating and all. And in my eyes we arranged a date.. And then he said he was only speaking to one person in which he could see a potential BF. That not being me, and I had to ask if that meant that he did not want to see if I was potential.. But no I was not potential anymore. And then I think why are people first asking for a BF, and then they expect the people that react not to think that they stand a chance.. what was really strange however that he played pokemon aswell.. xD I didn't met him on a pokemon site so that being strange.

But that made me feel bad. Especially since at first I didn't really feel anything for him, and I started to have some sort of feelings since we shared much things.. And then someone just goes for looks. I thought I was wrong... I mean I take looks in consideration. Sort of if someone looks terrible, and doesn't do anything for it (I mean things like cutting hair better or so) then I think no chance if (s)he wants me. But the thing is, I can fell in love and even like someones appereance later on.. like that happend with this guy..

I just dislike how people restrict their choices that much.. that way I don't stand a chance at all.

Anyway I had a very big rant, but there is also something positive, I got my drivers licence! And I am verliebt (that other thing was just a crush) with Nick, a person from my study, he is so handsome and all. At first I thought he was gay.. And I didn't really fellt attracted to him, but more and more I started to like him xD. And I have added him on msn and we do chat occasionally and it looks fine. Btw another thing did I told you about some guy willem? if not, then that was a crush, and didn't become anything..

I hope you get to be verliebt aswell, and be succesfull with it